Princess Winter

This blog is named after "My little pony" Princess Winter. Things I might talk about on my blog are: Me, Hockey, the OC, the baha'i faith, me, family, friends, school, me... etc.

Monday, October 31, 2005

How Can I take away her pain

Okay, so she has been there for me since sophmore year. She has been there for me uring a time that even my parents weren't there for me. She has been someone who could make me laugh through tears, and not be afraid. She means so much to me, that if I had the guts, I would throw myself into a fire for her, but what do I do when she's hurting. She seems to know just what to do when I am. She just tells me she loves me, gives me a kiss, and it all seems to just melt away. I tried telling her I loved her, and giving her a kiss, and telling her everything was going to be alright, but it didn't work. She was still sad. Today its worse because what she was sad about yesterday was just out of fear. Today what she feared came true. I dont know how to help her, except just be here for her. Okay, so instead of talking all cryptically, (or poetically maybe? LOL!) Aleena and Forrest broke up today. SHe's heartbroken because of how much she cared for him. They are going to stay friends, apparently, and really good friends. He's even coming over tonight, not too sure why. I think it will only upset her more. She said otherwise she will cry all day, and sleep. She said she would cry if he was there. I think thats less because she wouldn't WANT to cry, and more because she won't let herself. I'm worried and I don't know what to do.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Looking Up?

So, I got a job today at sears. I will be a cashier. I turned in everything and the paperwork. I had to go get a drug test. I"m assuming I passed. LOL! So, yeah, its a little better. Its only 8.20 an hour, which I can live off of and pay my bills off of, but just barely, or maybe not even. I will probably work there until I"m even and living paycheck to paycheck (right now i need to catchup cause i'm living behind paychecks). Then start looking for a higher paying better job. I hope something works. This is without paying off my student loans even. I also want to thank everyone who asked if I was okay, or tried to make me feel better. I also want to say that if it weren't for Aaron, I wouldn't have a job right now. He put up with my crying for an hour and a half, and talked me into looking for other jobs other than office jobs, and supported me, even drove me to the interview so he would be there when I got out for moral support, just in case, and walked around the store several times and sat on a bucket and watched TV while he waited. He even bought me a bracelet. :D I love him so much.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Life Sucks, well, not really, but parts

So, yeah, if you hadn't figured out by the title already, i'm pretty upset. So, lets see, TDL set me up with an interview with Northern Schools Federal Credit Union. I had it yesterday. It seemed to go really well. It would be $12 an hour as a receptionist. I talked to Denny's yesterday and the daytime manager said that my hours were to restrictive for her... so basically, she's not going to hire me. So, yeah now I don't have a job, and aaron is mad at me because I don't have a job, and my dad is mad at me cause Aaron sleeps at my house sometimes. In less than 2 months I have ruined practically my entire life. The only thing I have anymore thats good is Aaron, and I've done thing that should have messed that up, but he puts up with it. Yeah, thats it.

Monday, October 24, 2005

No Moving Company for Me. :(

SO, I talked to the lady at TDL and she said that she talked to the moving company. Apparently the people they have hired for other stuff are helping out with the things I would do in that position, and its been pretty slow (and they think might be for most of the winter). So, the decided not to fill the position just yet. So, it looks like I still have no job. I talked to Aleena's mom, Helen, about denny's today, and since I hadn't written down what hours I could work, they hadn't scheduled me yet. I really hope its soon. Last night, I used ALL my change in the car, and Aaron gave me $3, and got some gas. I have a quarter tank, and thats ALL until I have a job. I keep getting more bills in the mail, and am late on quite a few of them. I really need these two jobs to start up now! So, when I talked to Aleena's mom, I was over at her house because Aleena was in a car accident. She was driving back from Anchorage (she went to governor's cup) and said it was clear the whole way, and all of a sudden there was TONS of snow, so she was slowing down, hit a patch of ice, her car spun around, and then rolled 3 or 4 times. She's okay. Her and forrest were both there, and they are both okay. She hit her head pretty hard though, and her mom worries so much, so it was a fight to get her out of the house so she could some home, but she really wanted to be home, just like I did after my accident. I'm glad that I don't have a job right now so I could be there for her, but I really still wish I had a job. :( That's all for now.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Update for Everyone

Okay, so apparently I have major fans checking back every day to see if I have a job. LOL! Well, I went to Denny's friday and talked to Helen, the manager (also Aleena's mom). I filled out an application, she asked me a few questions about information they needed to call in to the major office in Anchorage. She said they'd called it in, and then I left. I haven't heard from her since, but I used the LAST of my change to buy gas, and Aaron gave me $3. I don't know what I'll do if I don't work at Denny's immediatly. I need the tips. I am only going to work at Denny's part time, 2 days a week 7pm-2am, and then once a weekend 3pm-11pm. I had an appointment with TDL Professional Staffing and she said that i'm a "smart cookie." It sounds like she has a job for me. It would be with Sourdough Moving Company and it would be a receptionist position at $12 and hour. Thats more than I've ever made before, so I really hope I get it. I also think that its only me and one other person who might get it. The woman at TDL said that she has talked to the Office Manager, and that person is going to talk to their boss and see when she wants to meet both of us. If I do good there, then I would have that job. I'm really excited about that one. I would do both jobs (denny's part time and sourdough full time) for a month or so, then, if I was still enjoying the luxery of massive bucks, and was handling it, then I would continue to work both jobs, but if I was having a hard time handeling both, then I would quit denny's. I think Aaron doesn't want me working at denny's because it will cut into our time together. I think it won't be a huge deal for him if its three days a week (just like it was when we first started hanging out). I think it would be harder if it was 5. Anyways, thats the latest update. I just hate updating and not having any new for sure information. I'll try to keep updating though with possiblities and such though. :D

Thursday, October 20, 2005


Aaron and I. Isn't he cute?

Me Dressed for Interview

Clarification and Update

Many people who have taken my poll have said that I will get a 6 month grace period if I withdraw. This is not true. I have asked financial aid personally, and they have said if I withdraw completely, I will get no such grace period. Just wanted to explain that. Oh, and a little update, I went into TDL today, and they have a nice paying receptionist job for me, maybe, and its basically me and one other person, and she hasn't contacted the other person yet. There is also a part time one that isn't as much, but I could do part time there and part time denny's. I will work at least part time at denny's for a little while for extra money and to help out Aleena's mom, but if I get the job I want, I should be pretty well set for a while. :D Yay!

Denny's It Is

So, I talked to Aleena's mom yesterday. Friday i'm going to fill out an application, and I'll start almost right away. She isn't even going to train me, she's just going to put me on the floor. That means I get tips the day I start. Whoopie! It will be graves, but its better than nothing. I will stay there for at least a month or so, cause I promised Aleena's mom that I would. After that, I will look for a daytime job and either quit denny's, or cut down to part time, just a day or two a week. I am going to sears today to get work clothes. I also need to withdraw the $ for rent, to give to Aleena. I need to dig myself out of this hole before I spend alot of energy on getting a different job. I'm pretty sure I can make a good amount of money at Denny's. :D Anyways, thats about it I think. This week was spent mostly just hanging out. Oh, and my ex-roommate Nina was driving and slid off the road a little into a ditch between the road and a driveway, but she was fine there and could have easily been pulled out, but then a car tried to stop and help, and knocked her across the driveway and down the hill through some trees. She had to get it towed out. Bryce and Aaron and I went to go pull her out, and they didn't chain the tires at the bottom of the hill, but decided to do it when they got there, so when we stopped to help, we almost went down the side of the hill. It was scary. Went tanning yesterday. I love tanning. Anyways, thats about it. I need ot figure out the loan situation. Looks like i'm going back in to UAF to talk to them then. I need to know if I withdraw from all but 1 class, if I have to pay my loans right away. If I don't, if it gives me any time at all, then I think I might not drop one class.

SO OPINION TIME!!!
Option A: Drop all classes, start paying back loans right away, can't afford it, go deep deep into debt, and live the life that everyone has warned me about
Option B: Drop all but one class, hopefully get 6 months before I have to start paying off loans, then I will have paid off alot of my other stuff, and I will be better able to handle the student loans.
Option C: I'm making it all up, and no matter what I do, short of staying in all my classes and failing them all, I have to pay back my loans, so I should just withdraw from all of them.
Option D: I'm making it all up, and no matter what I do, short of staying in all my classes and failing them all, I have to pay back my loans, so I should just fail my classes instead of withdrawing.

Vote Today!

Monday, October 17, 2005

Job Hunting

Job hunting is kinda a bitch. I filled out TONS of applications and made a resume and printed tons. I need to go drop them off, but its hard to MAKE myself get up for something that takes like 30-60 minutes. But then, I am not ready before the places close. I know its sad. I also get my heart set on certain places that I REALLY want to work at, and then get disappointed when I don't end up working there. Like, right now I really want to work at the newsminer, but I don't think thats going to work out. I filled out applications for other places, but i'm not too sure I want to work there. Oh, and Aleena's mom (Momma) wants me to work for Denny's, and I don't want to work there, and so I feel bad whenever I talk to her. If I did work there, it would be for a week or so, then I would quit when I found another job. I hate doing that. Oh well, the roommate thing isn't as bad anymore. We kinda don't talk much, and it seems like she's mad at me, but I just ignore it. I'm going to try to clean up the house tomorrow though. Things with Aaron are good. He's wonderful. I went snowmachining with him and that was okay. Mostly I just got cold, which sucked, but it was nice that he was so happy. He kept hugging me the whole time and was really Overattentive. It was sweet. We went Bowling friday night, after dinner, which was tons of fun. It was forrest, aleena, kyle, nina, and me and aaron. Then, saturday we went ice skating, and hung out with Kyle and Nina. Then sunday was when we went snowmachining. I had a really eventful weekend. Anyways, thats all for now. Now that I have internet and its all set up I can update more often.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Roommate troubles

So, I guess I'll use this to vent about my roommate situation. So, I have two roommates. My best friend since 10th grade, whom I love with all my heart, and her sister. Aleena and I don't always agree. I don't want to pretend like EVERYTHINGS perfect with her, but when we do disagree, we either get over it (if it was a silly disagreement) or we talk about it, and then solve the problem. No problems there. My other roommate is a different story. For the first two months, she couldn't afford to pay the full third, which I understand, so Aleena and I picked up the slack by paying a bit more each. I had NO problem with that. When we were just looking at apartments, she called the biggest bedroom, Aleena the second. Again, I had no problems because I was coming from a dorm room about the size of my room now, but I shared it with another person and had to keep EVERYTHING I own in it. She saw the garage and said "this is going to by my party room." I was confused why we wouldn't use the garage as it was intended, and why she couldn't use the ENTIRE house as a "party room" because thats okay with Aleena and I. She has a cat, as does my best friend. Aleena's cat is declawed and neutered. Her cat is not. When we moved in she said she was going to get the cat declawed. I offered to take her cat to get it done when I had money, because I was tired of him tearing things up. She said no, she hadn't decided that she was going to declaw him yet. She refuses to neuter him because she wants to "breed him." This cat is a cat from hell. Anyone who sleeps here, besides her because she kicks him out of her room if he starts making noise, hates him. He wails at 3 o clock or so every morning, for several hours. We are only allowed two pets, under 30 lbs. We have 2 pets under 30 lbs. She constantly tells me she's going to bring home a puppy, like a large dog. I mentioned that we cannot have pets that large, nor can we have more. She says "they won't find out." This is all leaving out the illegal activities that go on in her room, or the rest of the house. After all this, she got mad at me last night because I didn't empty the trash 1)because we had no trash bags and 2) because I never use the trash and 3) because to me, trash isn't a big deal when theres cat shit stuck to the carpet in the closet. She gets mad at me because the entire house is messy, although its everyones, not just mine. She wants to apparently have a nice clean house so when people come over, but I guess they just won't mind the smell of cat shit. Anyways... i'm really stressed about it. My boyfriend is upset because after all this, her talking trash about me in the kitchen, while i'm in the living room and can hear her, her bf calls me and asks me to take them both to school tomorrow. This is because her car doesn't work because she spends her money on weed and alcohal. I'm not sure what to do because if I talk to my best friend about it, she gets defensive because it is her little sister. I can't talk to her about it because she just gets mad at me, and makes it sound like i'm trying to be controlling (maybe I am, but I don't think so). I really don't know what to do. I will probably just have to talk to Aleena about it, and she'll just get mad at me, and I'll have to deal with that.

On a side note, I got the internet hooked up at my house. FINALLY. Except, even though the wireless is hooked up, it doesn't work as wireless. I ahve to be plugged into it. I can't seem to figure it out. Luckily my bf is a bit of a computer nerd (but not too much), so he can come fix it later. Oh well, i'm off to finish the job hunt. I have to print resume's, fill out applications, turn in applications, and then hopefully it will be time for aaron to be off work. TGIF, even though I have no plans for the day and I'm broke.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Response to Comment

I thought that if you are no longer in school, you can wait for 6 months or so to pay back your loans. Is it different if you withdrawl? I am going to ask this of UAF soon, but its nice to know ahead of time. The only way I would not TOTALLY withdrawl is if I kept one class, either comm, but probably math, and if I do that that I would have to work around it. :P Hmm.... decisions decsions. Thanks for the heads up though. :D

Monday, October 10, 2005


Aaron on his snowmachine

Aaron on Left, Bryce on right, at Bryce's parents house

Aleena at Bonfire

Aaron

Nathan Chillin at CCH

Aleena In Florida

Rachel looking cute

Royally Screwed

So, I'm not exactly sure what i'm going to do about my life now. I have about 200-300 from my paycheck from CCH. My last paycheck. I have lss than 50 in savings, and I have dividends of 850 coming. So, that means I have 1100-1200 coming in. I have 325 in winter gear (a jacket and snowpants), and 475 for rent, and 250 for loans, and about 50 for credit cards. That leaves no money for winter tires, food, gas, etc. I have no clue what i'm going to do. On top of that I have a over 200 cell phone bill.... I don't know what i'm going to do, but I"m sure I'll figure it out. I've basically made the decision that i'm going to withdraw from school, pay off all my CC's, loans, etc, and just work. Then, when i'm all paid off, I'll maybe start taking classes again. So, yes.... thats it. :D Thats all for now. If I can get pictures off Aaron's computer i'll post some.

Friday, October 07, 2005

Today I was fired

So, yeah, I realize its been a while. Sorry, I've been busy. I just realized that I hadn't, and had access to the internet for a moment. So, yes, today I was fired. The winter manager at the coffee house and I don't exactly get along. I don't really want to go into details about the firing because I don't want to go on and on about what she did, cause it will look like I"m just bitter, which I am, and I don't want to sit here and talk about what I did wrong, because then it will look like I think I deserve to get fired. So, I will just go with I got fired. I'm not sure what i'm going to do now. Another bad deal in my life is that i'm failing ALL my classes, i'm pretty sure of it. Which means my dad will no longer pay for rent. Sucks. :P So, yes, thats my life. I'm working on figuring out what i'm going to do. I want to talk to my brother, but he is aparently not home. Maybe i'll call him later tonight. :D Anyways, much love to all.